just wondering….
even though I’ve temporarily “turned off” lovefeelings, why do i feel so lonely..?
nvm…..
gonna focus on ESC now, and later I’ll do a livestream (I hope it will turn out well :$)
Just annoying
Gaaah I think I’ll just skip the Visual Kei-project….
As a warm up, I tried to sing Cassis by the GazettE, wrath and vanguard by exist trace.
As a result, I shutted down the youtube-window and ended up crying :(
I just can’t do it, I can’t get the tones right, I miss the pronouncations and uuuhpigopifg
Just need to clear my mind, can’t do it now, and since the audition closes tomorrow, I’m considering on giving up… I’m just not ready now..
Still a bit “anxious” about the audition…
Haven’t done the video….
Idk what to do..
Sometimes I hate myself since I easily “give up” in things like these, atleast when it comes to singing.
I’ve had a better self-conscience when it comes to the singing before, but after I had a solo in the school-choir where I made an exhale so the whole room could hear, I never dared to sing infront of anyone… I want to be brave and sing, but idk..

